While packing I found some of my old writings and poems. This poem is called Dream. I wrote it before I met Liz. I hope you enjoy it.
Loneliness the agonizing dream
disenchanted I roam like death
Forever alone by my own will.
Weep not for me, I have a mission it seems
to make a mark on the Earth that will last beyond me.
The foolishness of it all for the only lasting thing I can leave,
I am denied in my foolhardy quest
with a fools dream, I go forth
Alone hoping for the day of release.
The desolation burns my soul
scorched into the flesh that I am alone.
An alloy of human flesh and loneliness.
But weep not for I go forward with a dream
I go forward alone to save the world!
To save the world that is why I must be alone.
For only the selfless can save the world
and the selfless are alone.
Or maybe, it truly is because I am alone
Alone upon the planet, the people only phantoms.
the phantoms play and have fun,
I journey on and have none.
No it is because I can not bring myself
to open up my heartr and believe
in the promise of love and companionship.
I am afraid, afraid of Eve
for she has cut into me
Wounds that can nver be healed by the likes of me.
So I stay away from Eve in my loneliness
I strive to find happiness
From within but how can I a man
Heal the deep wounds that I see.
the hurt, pain, agony and shame
Yet still, I wallow, still I claim
In what I know as home.
So now you know,
I live not for some great cause
Or even the simple pleasures.
I live my life to not be
Struck down again by Eve.
Fear is how I live
fear of pain
And fear of healing
Locked in between, the outcome is certain
a lonely old man accomplished
except for the one thing
The caress of a lover
the warmth of a friendship
And the comfort of loved ones.
But do not grief for me
I give eslfishly to this folly of a dream
but the joke is on me for she can not only wound me
but heal me